Flip through

Sunday 4 October 2009

Home, he was

And he was home, after a very long time. He had been away for the first time, and back too since his departure. And now, being there – the presence of his own self in the place which was his home – he was happy. Extremely happy! And in such a state of exalted happiness he found himself torn between fetching memories of this place from his past to see, out of mere childish curiosity, how much of those resembled the present and imbibing every dram of now to make new memories while he still had the time. The frenzy seemed to dumb him down for a moment as an awkward grin found its way to his delighted face.

Soon enough it was time for him to leave home – once again. He was now back to being away. The air he now breathed was heavy with melancholy. He lay on his bed and closed his eyes, trying to fall asleep. Instead, he was unmistakably transported back home. His eyelids trembled. He now stood outside his apartment. Its brown wooden door appeared poised with the white wall around it; their edges blurred and running into each other. One corner of his eye held the door bell; the other held the black stairs running up. He stood motionless for a few moments. Then stepping back, he turned around and started walking towards the exit of the building. An old tube light hanging from the ceiling made a low buzz. The light from it showed varying shades of grey on the tiled floor and on the walls around till they ended in a blotch of darkness at the grilled exit gate. With every step, the roughness of the concrete floor outside the gate was growing vivid to his senses, like he was leaning against it. He stopped at the threshold and looked around. Yellow street lights and an occasional pair of wobbling headlights gave him a sense of the slope of the dusty street across. He stepped into the grainy darkness of the night.

This time, dumbed down by melancholy, he did not know whether to walk off into the night or go back inside his house or simply stand there. Choice was rendered futile in the pursuit of his past. But soon, he knew, the hopelessness of the pursuit would remind him of his present and eventually restore the power of choice for the sake of his future. "Soon," he whispered to himself and closed his eyes. When he opened them a moment later, he still wished he was on the other side of the world.

13 comments:

  1. 448 words Shamanth, not one wasted, each one holding its own and yet in complete harmony with the other. Your shorts breathe mate...

    Look forward to much more from the best blogger I have read...

    ReplyDelete
  2. @ ATMM - thank you so much and all the same for sharing this piece which is very close to my heart with the world on your page.

    @ Rohit - Damn! You are going to pay for your cruelty! :P

    ReplyDelete
  3. rise and once in a while have blown my mind.

    dude, you are amazing.

    ReplyDelete
  4. @Nisarg - thanks for dropping by.

    @AGG - thank you very much :)

    ReplyDelete
  5. Conclusion amazing...
    mesmerized throughout.

    ReplyDelete
  6. @mikimbizi - Oh thank you!! you know what, the biggest challenge of this piece for me was to conclude it! :) glad you liked it :)

    ReplyDelete
  7. Damn :) why did you have to end it like this..that he wanted to be on the other side of the world ..does it reflect a part living in each of us?

    ReplyDelete
  8. @ani_aset - well now that's up to each one of us to decide now isnt it? :)

    ReplyDelete
  9. Got here from As the Mind Meanders blog. Very well written.

    ReplyDelete
  10. @Peter - thank you and welcome to my page :)

    ReplyDelete
  11. The pursuit of his past made the choice trivial. But soon, he knew, the hopelessness of the pursuit would remind him of his present and reassert the significance of choice for the sake of his future.

    it sounds perfect.. really good

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for NOT copying

Creative Commons License All content on this page is copyright protected and is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 Unported License.